sometimes you just have those days
where you wonder what the heck am i doing?
[they are usually bad days]

i cannot wait to someday have my own washer and dryer.
then i can wash and dry these jeans repeatedly on HOT and HOT and maybe they will shrink to the point where they actually fit for longer than the first three seconds after i put them on.

i hate my car.
yes, car, i hate you.
this week i have spent more money on keeping you healthy than i have spent on keeping myself healthy for the last three months [including food] or the last five years [not including food, but including healthcare].
but please keep working.
at least until i get to santa fe and back.

i love my bike.
all it asks is a little air in the tires [free], some grease on the chain [$8 outlay...four years ago] and a willingness for me to get off my lazy butt.
so it's economical and good for me.
go figure...not many things in the world fit into those two categories.

i have a little list on a post-it note in my desk of things i want.
totally irrational and unnecessary things [mostly] that i should not spend money on.
if something is on the list long enough i usually lose interest, but sometimes with the internet at my fingertips and a credit card in my bag i lose control.
here's what's on the list now:

Patagonia Rain Shadow Pant



these would be good for biking, so they are somewhat rational.
and it's not like i would be wearing them for fun, so maybe they even qualify as a need.

Isis Lucky Stripe Vest



yes, i already have a down vest...it's even the same brand.
but i wear it every day. really.
it would be nice to be able to mix it up a bit.

EMS Audobon Shirt



it's cute.
and summer is coming.
and it's organic cotton, so maybe i'd be helping the earth a little bit?

J. Crew Convertible Swing Dress



yes, i know.
i know, i know, i know.
i never ever actually wear dresses.
but that's because i don't buy them because they cost an arm and a leg and you can wear a dress, what....one month out of the year here?
not the greatest return on that investment.
but this one can be a dress or a skirt (double for your money!) and it looks comfortable.

if only i had a lot of money.
sigh.